How are we all feeling?

Hi friends:

i know I am very fortunate. My three sons are still working and we are all safe and comfortable.   I am lucky to be able to spend some time with my youngest son who is home from New York City. But, I am still feeling a little low.

I started out feeling pretty good about the extra time at home, as my days were filled catching up on household chores, joining online art and yoga classes, and having coffee meetups. I was able to get some structure into my weeks and feel that I was accomplishing something. I could order art supplies and books online. I could read more. I could relax in the evenings.

But, it has gotten harder as the days seem repetitive. How about you? How are you getting through it?

Although there have been many silver linings, like seeing my son practice yoga and show off his abilities in the kitchen. More time to practice my art and experiment. Just to have “time”, instead of constantly feeling rushed. But, it is harder to get going some mornings as one day feels much like the next. Do I need some stress in my life to feel motivated?

I listened to a short video today from Yannick Bisson, of Murdoch Mysteries. (Yes, I am a fan) He was saying he felt a little down today, and just felt like saying it. I could relate. Maybe you can too.

I hope you are finding joy in your days. I do appreciate the time to practice my art - and to treat it more as an occupation. I have spent many hours playing in the home studio/laundry room/bedroom. Time spent just on my own, trying new things, wrestling with my own harsh judgement and trying to stay open and loose. I find the process helps me to learn more about myself. I have to learn to let go of the outcome, learn to enjoy the process. Maybe that’s what COVID-19 is teaching us too. Since we can’t control it. We need to stop fighting against it and see what we can learn about ourselves.

I hope you are not being too hard on yourself and that you are taking time to observe the small changes in nature, as spring inevitably comes. I do take comfort from the fact that the world has not stopped. The cycle of life continues, in spite of COVID-19. Keep up the good work. Take care of yourself. Know that you are enough. And it is OK to have some sad moments. This too shall pass. I would love to hear how you are feeling and coping.

Little experiments

Keeping busy during COVID-19